mama always said "you can't fix every bird with a broken wing
but you can try"
well, I've been watching birds die my whole life,
palms stretched wide to cradle hearts
titterin' out of heaving chests
and mama believes in heaven
and the book
me? I believe in molecules and dirt
* star-dust
lighting all of us like little lanterns dancing round a rock
and mama's wise
nurses her babies to full glow, blankets her plants when it frosts
carries her ghosts like they're crowns
sagely, she passes her stalwartness down
words to say to your reflection by aprilwednesday, literature
Literature
words to say to your reflection
i am a collection of dust and stars,
blue luster in a sea of inky void.
i am a tongue licking lips, clicking against teeth,
shaping sounds that matter.
i am the lightning that explodes in purple storm clouds,
four miles of haphazard beauty
on a lonely night.
i am the sea in autumn, still holding the warmth of a summer of sunlight,
though the air outside is cold
by now.
i am the snow at 6am.
i have not been touched, not stepped on. my surface is smooth as glass.
i am the snow at 6pm.
i am still beautiful.
i am the sound of rain just before sunrise
on a sunday morning.
i am the swirl of cream in a coffee,
blossoming and unfolding like a
darling look back, reminisce
upon life, that life that you missed
while consumed by consumption,
too weary to function
replay and rewind; stop, repeat & you'll find
you're out of your mind
and it's all that matters
and your life is in tatters
replay and rewind; that's it, stop the tape
please my darling, don't make this mistake
i spent the entirety of the trip staring at the little hula girl that was wobbling and rocking out to the radio on your dashboard, hoping that i could just ignore the conversation that just took place, and that if i ignored it enough, it wouldn't have ever existed. but the words were clogging up the front of the car, and i could taste them, and i wanted to wind down the windows and watch them get sucked out and fly backwards down the highway, and never come back. but you hated the sound the wind made, and i had never felt more trapped in my life.
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it was times like this i think my crazy aunt was right, and some people really do fit their
i'll be six feet under
- the stars, and you will
be right beside me
hand clasped, fingers through
fingers
laced right up like a corset
and you are everywhere,
like you've melted yourself into
my clouds and you've got yourself
stuck and i'll never be able to let go
you are vapour, rain, puddle, vapour
you are cycling through brain tissue
and you don't stop
and i will tell you this, i will say:
even when our little planet has been
burnt to a crisp, or smashed into
ten trillion pieces, has been frozen over
like the skin on my neck,
even then: i will still love you
because you'll still be in my clouds,
even if you've been flung in
countless
autumn is near and you
are falling, fallen
you are blowing away from me
like dust
i have shaken myself
out of your barbed wire grip
and oh,
i am cut to pieces
memories sing like sirens
as you pour from my pores,
and i will not cry,
i will not let you change me
i'm ripping you from my skin
like hot wax and plasters
and you do not even hurt
not anymore